The last few months of High School.

(first day of senior yr.)

So I haven't been on here for awhile cuz I either just forgot about this or I have been busy with school, mostly cuz I forgot and I was lazy just to go back on and write something.

So today-or more like last night, I felt inspired to write something that I have been feeling for a while and I pretty much just wrote that down today in 4th hr when the teacher was trying to figure out what to do with us cuz we finished our business presentations early.

(the day before winter break)

I havent written in the longest time (besides school stuff) so I can let my feelings flow out and just feel better. School is frustrating, I just wanna get over it. Just be there for fun stuff, u know? All these projects (2 BIG projects due this week) and assignments are a pain in my butt, and at the same time trying hard to achieve them so I can raise my grade and therefore raise my GPA so I can get that gold cord ive been "dreaming of"- I guess u can say. I cant get lazy now, ive worked too hard these past two years so I can just "fail" and cry. Its ridiculous to know how dedicated I am to school work and waiting on those acceptance letters for college, especially FIU, that I actually cry for it cuz I feel as if its never going to happen to me. Im never going to be one of those people who get accepted by their "dream school" or first choice.

(homecoming week- twin day, Senior Skittles=)

Any time I have those conversations about my future and education with my dad, it gets to a point where I cant take it no more and he wont shut up about it cuz he just doesnt know how I feel because he literally has never been in my position before.. and from that point I start to cry and I can hear my mother in background saying "oh god, not again..".

(pep rally- it was, and still is our time to shine.)

YES, I do cry about school, cuz at this point (3 more months till graduation) its frustrating not knowing where im going to go or do... "Should I take the SAT/ACT again? Or wait to see if I get something in the mail in the next few days coming up..?" At this point I believe more than half the senior population at my school knows where they are going to go, weather its locally or some where else in the state of Florida.

(poster posted up for Senior Week.)

And I, just dont know. And the last final months of High School are now here.

Beautiful <3

I am beautiful. You are beautiful. We all are beautiful.

Calling yourself beautiful in front of a bunch of people is hard. Especially when you think your not and that is one of your main insecurities. It’s even harder when you are saying it to a group of people you hardly even know. But when you’re saying this, you have to be confident and have no doubt about it. You can’t be unsure of yourself, for God made YOU beautiful. He made you according to his image and likeness- as to what he saw in his eyes.

It may be hard to take this in, but you got to believe that it is true. And you may feel weird and/or uncomfortable declaring it to the whole world, but I believe, that this will/could make you a stronger, better person. With more confidence and self-esteem. It will be hard to believe this and to think this through your head, but you shouldn’t let the WORLD- people who are judging you, just by your looks, telling you, you are “ugly, fugly, disgusting, etc.” bring you down. Don’t believe them and don’t let them bring you down!

One thing I have been thinking for the past 2 years is that, everybody is beautiful in their own way. Weather it’s your personality, sense of humor, eyes, hair, charisma, etc. We all got something that everybody will admire from us and think it’s charming. And when you really look at that person, like really look at them, you could see that one thing that makes them beautiful. Weather its inside and/or out. And that will make them shine just like the rest of us.